NaNoWriMo #3

A bit over the halfway point and officially only 6,000ish words done. This does not bode well for my word count. I suppose I can only plead laziness over Veteran's Day Weekend.

Despite the very small increase in words, Things Have Happened. Alissande has character development and Jayahn is racist. Joy.

Alissande, who is a failed student and feels like she fails at everything in life, is supposed to either grow a backbone or find herself and develop confidence in herself. Or possibly both. Her backstory is still getting nailed down. But I finally have the scene where she demonstrates this confidence.

Lucas is trying to help her see her impossible task of making Jayahn help them in a more positive light. He doesn't tell her that her task is possible, he's not quite sure of that himself, but he tells her that she should keep trying because by her own admission, she has nothing to lose. So why not risk it all?
Alissande is still Unhappy with Lucas because he had arrested her (that particular scene still has not been written). She's feeling terribly unsure about herself and not sure what to do next. However, she is sure of one thing. Lucas calls Jayahn 'Jeanne' because that is how her legend was known to their culture. He knows her name is Jayahn, but still calls her Jeanne anyways because that is how he has always 'known' her as. He does not mean it disrespectfully or anything.
So Alissande decides to cling to the one bit she does know and tells him, "Her name isn't Jeanne. It's Jayahn, Get it right."
Good girl. [Though it does make me wonder if Alissande is going to prickly about names and using the correct name/pronunciation like I used to be. :\ ]

Other developments are that apparently.....Jayahn is a bit racist. I'm not sure how much, but she is. While this is probably realistic, I feel like it puts me in a difficult position. Or at least, it makes me uncomfortable.
I spent a good chunk of the morning yesterday (during lecture...) thinking about how my background as a sociology student affects my writing and how my characters get to be who they are. How much do I rely on stereotypes? Cultural structures? Social structures? Conflict theory? Symbolic interactionism?
Why is Jayahn racist? Can she still be a good character despite that? Will she change in her opinions?

Have I pushed her into this position because of my own preconceptions and socialization? Or am I finally starting to be mean to my characters? And is therefore Jayahn being racist a product of my brilliant imagination because it can and will tie together internal and external conflicts?

Seeing the direction of my thoughts, I obviously had not planned for this. I knew that Jayahn hated everyone who looks like what she knows as the invaders, and will gravitate towards people whose looks are most familiar to her (mostly people of the region where Alissande is from). But until I sat down for class, I hadn't realized that there was a term for Jayahn's behavior: racism.

I'm still reeling in shock here, and I suspect I might for a while.